Everyone thinks that we are perfect… I see things that nobody else sees. I did something I deeply regret. It was small. Like a paper cut, tiny, but the after math of the sting really hurts. I made a mistake. One that I would take back in a heart beat. But I can’t. I […]
Streaks of Masscara run down my face as I stare back at my reflection. Never have I ever hated my body, myself so much. Fat. I look at my arms and see giant sausages. My stomach, if I suck in not flat enough… If I let it out normal, kill me now. […]
Magic. Madness. Heaven Sent. Someone asked me why I don’t wear dresses as often anymore… Truth: I want to hide my body. Comfy BIG Sweaters// Leggings// And a pair of flats Hiding. We all do it. Thin. Skinny. Little. Small. Maybe you don’t think you are good enough or deserve something so you only aim […]
“We are the reckless, The Wild Youth, Chasing Visions of Our Future” Lately I have been referring to myself as a Hazard to Myself. (Yes, I am quoting PINK) As things start to look up I can’t help but look back. Where am I going? Sometimes it just feels like I am going in zig […]
“See all of my kindness is taken for weakness…” UGH… EXACTLY how I feel! Boys. Are. Stupid. (No offense) So sick of the BS that is always happening. And yes- I know my Christian friends are going to tell me “It’s because you need to wait for the right one…” “Be Patient.” “He is worth […]
COMPLICATED. I Hate that word. And yet I feel like it describes my life to a t. Lately, nothing seems to make sense. Life isn’t bad-that is not what I am saying at all. But it is far from simple. Boys, family, health… it all seems to be a tangled up mess. Webs. They are […]
Am I in the clear yet? I have been obsessed with the song “Out of the Woods” by TSwift. It’s a new year. 2k15, thank God! But I can’t help to think am I out of the woods yet? 2k14 was CRAZY. Literally, the worse and most complicated year of my life. However, I decided that […]
I am starting to think that I don’t believe in Happy Endings. Sad you say? I don’t think so. I use to think that there was this grand plan and that every little thing I did mattered. And if I made one slip up the clock would strike midnight and I would never meet my […]
Ever wish you could just take a break from life? From problems? From past mistakes? Past regrets? Present issues? Present Drama? Trauma? Simply life. If you said yes, welcome to the club. And if you said no- well hello Mr. and Mrs. liars 😉 Truth is we all have weak moments in life. Moments we […]
Ever just want to scream? Like yell. Stomp your foot. And just have a bad day. We are allowed to have those once in a while. It’s called a pity party. And sometimes I like to host my own. Yup I can admit it. I put on my party hat and say poor me, I’m […]
Discovering a New Me 